Nights

what is night?
According to Wikipedia,
night is the period of time when the sun is below the horizon.
every time the sun rises, will then sunsets
and here's come the night

i had passed my mid-term exam
which lasts for almost 2 weeks
through the 2 weeks
I didn't sleep well
I didn't eat well
just to get myself concentrate on my studies
and I don't want to feel regret after all
and I went for group studies with her for times
in crc, school library and Starbucks sometimes

every night
I will feel something wrong
really
just a kind of feelings
feeling stressed
will then easily gone mad
and so
it affects my mood much
and I tried hard to control it
it just couldn't works
I don't know why I will have such feelings only
at the night
I hate it!
it makes me feel bad
it makes me feel so stressed during exam
and now
it struggles me again and again
it makes me think for something more
then i will gone mad
and started to have my mood changed

sorry if I treated you bad these days
hope you can understand my feelings
and don't think that I'm leaving you or what
just the feelings lead my mind to a Devil's part
and I suffered for quite a period
I know I have my mood changed
but I just hope that I can text you or chat with you with the way I really am
and not just pretending that I'm fine
and so
I will become so called 'don't trust you' at night
it struggles me for months
Months.

and
I really hope that you can tell me everything
you promised me
before
again and again
but it seems only words
for you
maybe you're nothing to get informed late
but for me,
i really don't like
I thought I told you times before
and it makes me no secure
you can say that I just think too much
but I just wanna tell you that
I don't want to let any chances to come across to separate us apart

I am really not in the mood now
I hope that you will understand my feelings.
and too for my readers
if you know what causing me suffering these stupid stuffs
do tell me ><
I really need help
before I can't stand with it
I just wanna say sorry to you
many things happened these days
you never noticed that something had changed
never
sometimes the guy who are so strong from his physical
he is no longer a strong guy in mental
you have to take good care of them
especially
to someone who really meant so much to you

Godfather
do bless my every night
God bless me.
=)

Lastly,
I still wanna say
I love you =)

Music of my day
What can I do - The Corrs

Dream =)

First of all,
I get my addmaths for 70 !! HAHAHAHAHAHA
Great news huh !! for the very first time
and she get 68 =)
yay yay ! xp

Secondly as Lastly, =)
Waking up early in the morning
wash up myself =)
and have my breakfast.
In a really good mood today.
hahahahahahaha
Cause imma for a outing trip to Penang with Her,Sis Reb and Tengwai =D
huhu.
It really just like a dream. =)

About 1130
I reach Her house
I felt really nervous
Cause have to meet with Her mum for the very first time after being IAR
haha
after putting my bag
then going to greet Her mum right =D
then walk there
and say: Auntie =)
aunt : hello =D
haha
cute cute.
feel so so friendly suddenly =)
then help Her to do Her lisan homework
Good BF huh =D
haha. *ss-nya~*
Her mum came in and chat with me for a while
and say that Im so slim ><
OMG =

then Her sister and Tengwai reached and fetch us
as Her sister went for working =)
then going to Penang at 1.xx
and reach at 3.xx p.m
then go to Pikom PC fair
then go to Gurney to have our tea break =)
as all are quite hungry that time xD
a piece of BIG FRIED CHICKEN
then share share eat lo =)
then go for PDI
and bought a Couple shirt =P
nice =)
then meet with Her brother and her brother's gf =D
and chit chatting around.
make me feel like we're just a family =X
gila d la me. Perasan nya~ =D
then go for dinner.
chit chatting there until 9.xx
then going back to hometown =)
she laid her body towards my shoulder
and slept silently
like a baby =)
I love that feel. Really =)
muackss =P

okay okay la.
eyes pain pain d
rest a while first.
I love you
I enjoy the trip really much !! =)
you make my day a memorable one xp
== 12/3/2011 ==
and thanks to Her sister and Her bf =D
God bless Us =)

God. =(

If you are here right now
I got something to tell you.
Really.

I need God. =(
God, please bless me.
God, please forgive me.
God, please give me a better day
God, I need you !

You may not forgive me.

Sacrifice before you Love =)

Exam is just around the corne
and I guess that this is the really first day I didn't text with you =(
Cause you're going to prepare yourself for the exam
Well-well-well than ever before =)
I should feel happy to you
and supports you always
but I just can't get my study mood for the coming exam
as I can't put down something in my hearts
and also in my mind
God bless me

Today
went for a seminar
with Her and of course others la
then while having group photos that time
I just had a bad feelings
Seeing her standing beside a other guy
I really feel so bad =(
I feel that I'm just so stupid
Why don't I just ask her to stand with me ><
WHY ?! WHY ?!?!?! WHY ?!?!?!?!?!?!?
feel like knocking my head to the Great Wall of China =(

and going for a Penang Trip
which is held by our school's club
=)
with Her
haha xD
happy happy.
first outing to a 'FAR' place
hope that WE will enjoy the trip much
and cherish that moment we are playing together =)
and give Her a unforgettable memories.
I love you
I mean it. =)
I will sacrifice everything for you <3

Songs playing: One in a million - Ne Yo
There's a million girls around but I don't see no one but you =)
Girl you're so one in a million
You are
Baby you're the best I ever had
Best I ever had =)
I Love YOU

The First Time =) =(

the very first time
you never do it to me.
before.

you break your promise for the very first time
and
didn't listen to my advice
and you think that it's a joke
but it is not.
I want you to do so
it's for your own good.

and the exam is coming soon
I have totally no mood
or just to say
not in a good mood
to study. =
God Bless Me please. ><

A guy jealous when he really is. =)

10.55 p.m

=( My First Time

Today
I was accompanying Her after school for her duty
We then did some homeworks
and
she saw a Cookies and Cake's book
and says that she wants to try them so badly
then I bear her words in mind
and after a moment,
we then go back to home =)

When first I reach home,
straight I ask my mum to buy me those ingredients
to bake my first Basic-Butter-CAKE for her . =)
I was so excited when first I prepared the steps
and follow it totally
cause I scared that I might disappoint Her

then
after finished all those preparations
Put-ed it in the Oven
sets for 45 minutes.
then I started to waiting for my first Cake to success =)

time passes
seconds ~

minutes ~

and suddenly
the aunty who just live beside my house
shout my mum
and says that some bad smell came from our house ><><><><><
I just take the first time as my punishment.
and have to becareful with it next time =

=DD

YAY !!

Happy
Fifth
Month
Anniversary
xDD

dont jealous =)
we deserved so
and we will go through every
Valentine's Day
and
Chinese New Year
and
Merry Christmas
hahahahaha =D