Alright, time flies 2 and a half year just passed in a blink of an eye
Never knows what was going on
We had came over these days
We had problems recently
and today yes today we at least give it a conclusion and a great opening as well
We finally came up with the idea of giving ourselves another chance of being couples
but with a special type of relationships
we do what best friends do act like best friends and yet we re in a relationship
A little bit weird? Yea at first I was upset
I was regretted for not being caring for her these days
And let her feel alone
It's time to give her some freedom and yes for us too
This is the solution she said before in the first 2 month of our relationship
When our relationship really meets with problems, we will give ourselves some space and freedom
We will get back together one day :)
Yes we are
I had promised her to wait me for another 10 years,
In the next 10 years, everything will be different
I promised to be a matured-thought guy and able to marry her at that time
I wished that her heart is still with me that time
I really do wish so
I can't see her holding another guy's hand, loving another guy, but the guy is not me
I can't stand it
We are going to make this relationships works
But first, His words are the point and the centre of our relationship
We can't give up on Him and wanting our relationship to maintain happily
We had been lack of Him these days, or these months
Still remember we were so passion about Him last time when I first knew Him
Godfather, you are the truth, the life, the light of my life :)
Today the first day, HAPPY OPPOSITE ANNIVERSARY DAY 9/4/2013
I loved her, love her, and will still love her
I promised to Godfather the first time of my prayer
I just want to be with her, this is the only time I being real selfish
Please forgive me Lord and I know Your plan is greater than mine
I just want You to put her in my plan as well
I love You, her, my family and her family as well
Oh Lord, I need You lead our relationship in the presence of JESUS' LOVE
From today onwards, I will spend like 15 minutes every night to get this blog updated.
Everyday until the day she accepts me as her husband :)
I promised to God, I will change after today
No more flirting, just fight for my future in His plan, and fight for her back in 10 years time
9 - 4 - 2023 I will remember the date Forever :)
Alright, time to get my blog started
Was a lil' sad at first, then went to check about my ktar intake :)
Printed out the offer letters and stuff
Going for the mass com on the 29th of April, 2013
Went for futsal match with Kampung Boyan FC, 11p.m. - 12.20a.m.
Kinda tired, exhausted after the game
Maybe my mood affects my mood in the game
Thank God I play safe :))
and most importantly I feel the love again in me, the love from You
Amen :)
I want to live a different life in the presence of You, Your words everyday in my life from today onwards
Until Yewei turns back to me :) and continue doing it together
I know you will lead me well.
Time to sleep. Alrght goodnight :)
1:32 AM
Tuesday, April 9, 2013
Thursday, March 29, 2012
Awwyeahh
Today supposed to be a happy day
as we have our cross country for today
for our school
but just because of the s*n of the b***h!
blind?
didn't see that I was just standing beside?
act like walking towards to ask me something?
then stay there to wait for conversation?
bastard!
you should be understood
you should know my style well.
but why you still can talk like this?
then leave me alone aside
then i walk away
alright, you still don't understood
I can't stand with it anymore.
not once
show some respect towards us
if I were you, I will just say few words then get off
but you're not.
you still laughing, chatting so happily.
I'm speechless
I chose to leave the area as to not ruin my mood
but when I walked back that time
you just feel like don't give a damn to me
alright alright.
you make my day :)
*p/s don't pick your own seat in this post. Thank you :)
as we have our cross country for today
for our school
but just because of the s*n of the b***h!
blind?
didn't see that I was just standing beside?
act like walking towards to ask me something?
then stay there to wait for conversation?
bastard!
you should be understood
you should know my style well.
but why you still can talk like this?
then leave me alone aside
then i walk away
alright, you still don't understood
I can't stand with it anymore.
not once
show some respect towards us
if I were you, I will just say few words then get off
but you're not.
you still laughing, chatting so happily.
I'm speechless
I chose to leave the area as to not ruin my mood
but when I walked back that time
you just feel like don't give a damn to me
alright alright.
you make my day :)
*p/s don't pick your own seat in this post. Thank you :)
Wednesday, February 29, 2012
You. YES, you.
I just want to hold you tight.
I just want you to rely on me.
I won't let go.
We'd passed so much, I wish that we can really walk to the end point of the race.
I love you.
and I will always do. :)
Did you hear me?
Godfather, I pray that we are the one you planned.
And let the Love of Lord Jesus leads our love.
And let our relationship lasts until we walk in the Church and married.
Thank you Lord
In Jesus' name I pray, Amen!
:)
I just want you to rely on me.
I won't let go.
We'd passed so much, I wish that we can really walk to the end point of the race.
I love you.
and I will always do. :)
Did you hear me?
Godfather, I pray that we are the one you planned.
And let the Love of Lord Jesus leads our love.
And let our relationship lasts until we walk in the Church and married.
Thank you Lord
In Jesus' name I pray, Amen!
:)
Wednesday, December 28, 2011
You just think too much :)
Maybe
you just think too much
while others don't treat you like how you treat 'em
back from futsal
but don't really dare to give 'em response
I just need some place to release my stress
really.
so I chose to write it here.
Months had passed, Days had passed
I treat her as future wife
as someone told me,
treat the one you loved and imagine she's your future wife
but not simply fall in love
I admit that I'd fall in too deep now
I can't even get up
and I thought she might treat me the same
and feel the same
until tonight :)
she explained that,
she just treat me like a friend and a sister.
ask me not to misunderstand
means that there maybe still a slot for her to get a boy?
or maybe the excuse for her to get rid of me?
this is what i just guessing.
of course I don't hope this is real.
Definitely.
I had give out everything
really everything.
but what I get is just she treats me like a brother
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHA!
Is that worth for all?
I don't know
I don't know why she wants to speak in that way.
I just can't accept it at all
and that makes me don't dare to reply her
I don't wanna know more
I don't wanna ask
I just want to make her feel like I never saw the message before
She will never know how hurts I feel
Like you love her with all your heart, but she just simply tell you, she treat you like a brother? :)
I simply totally can't accept that.
Maybe this is the God's test?
God plans everything has its purpose
so maybe I shouldn't put it in my heart.
Now, please
Godfather and Lord Jesus
I need you :)
Do make me feel joyful in You
I really feel so empty
I shouldn't just affected by her words.
Lord, pull me up if I get too deep
I need you to lead this relationship and make me a decision
In Lord Jesus' name
Amen
you just think too much
while others don't treat you like how you treat 'em
back from futsal
but don't really dare to give 'em response
I just need some place to release my stress
really.
so I chose to write it here.
Months had passed, Days had passed
I treat her as future wife
as someone told me,
treat the one you loved and imagine she's your future wife
but not simply fall in love
I admit that I'd fall in too deep now
I can't even get up
and I thought she might treat me the same
and feel the same
until tonight :)
she explained that,
she just treat me like a friend and a sister.
ask me not to misunderstand
means that there maybe still a slot for her to get a boy?
or maybe the excuse for her to get rid of me?
this is what i just guessing.
of course I don't hope this is real.
Definitely.
I had give out everything
really everything.
but what I get is just she treats me like a brother
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHA!
Is that worth for all?
I don't know
I don't know why she wants to speak in that way.
I just can't accept it at all
and that makes me don't dare to reply her
I don't wanna know more
I don't wanna ask
I just want to make her feel like I never saw the message before
She will never know how hurts I feel
Like you love her with all your heart, but she just simply tell you, she treat you like a brother? :)
I simply totally can't accept that.
Maybe this is the God's test?
God plans everything has its purpose
so maybe I shouldn't put it in my heart.
Now, please
Godfather and Lord Jesus
I need you :)
Do make me feel joyful in You
I really feel so empty
I shouldn't just affected by her words.
Lord, pull me up if I get too deep
I need you to lead this relationship and make me a decision
In Lord Jesus' name
Amen
Sunday, July 3, 2011
Future
Mid-term exam had passed
and I achieved a real bad results this time
worse than before
and I'm not improving while all others all trying hard to improve
as to get in better classes next year
so I think to do something
to boast up my studies
and change all my study styles
change my attitudes
I really think much for this 1 month time
from the holidays until now.
My parents do everything to give me a good future
get everything I want
buy me everything I asked for
but I can't do something worth to repay them
first I really felt that I'm a terrible son
not really know how to appreciate their love
and never respect them
always know to talk them loudly
using some words that I shouldn't be using for them ><
I really feel so sorry to them after all
I should've changed myself
in order to get all success
my relationship to my parents
my relationship with my friends
my relationship with Her
my relationship with God
and I have to suffer sometimes really hard
before achieving what I really wants to
I don't wanna give you empty promises anymore
I am always doing the childish way
and causing laughter around
like a fool
I really wanted to stop this stupid habits.
but I just can't get any feelings of secure for me
I have to do this to make myself feel better
so don't scold me if I'm childish sometimes
you know what?
I forced to =(
I will feel very lonely at night
although with your accompanion
only my hands are busy
to text
but not my mouth ><
I want to talk
to share my feelings at night
but I can't
there's no one.
maybe I should choose my parents
but they too have their job
their duties to be done
so I can just keep myself silent through the night
and just phone you sometimes and talk
to make me feel a little bit better
and to make my night stay great =)
I know I can't give any promises now
but I just hope that you really know my feelings
my feelings towards you
towards my studies
towards my future
I did really think about it seriously
but I just felt so lazy to work it out before
but now
I'd really decided to change my own life
to give you and me, everyone beside me a better future
I will do prayer every night
talk to God
ask God to be with us always =)
Count our blessings
God bless everyone
Sorry
if I did wrong to you guys last time
I will try hard to get back our friendship
and I really hope that we will lasts long
friendship forever =)
our relationship never ends
and too for You
I will work hard to maintain this relationship
till the worlds' end =)
Me and You
I meant it
I love you
you're my source of power sometimes
boast me up when I'm down
telling something to comfort me
be with me when I'd hated by others
you're the one I trust the most
you're the one I fighting for
=)
and tomorrow is our 10th monthsary
hoped that we can achieve and maintain our relationship together
no matter where we are
what we are doing
we will be working hard together
just for our future
=)
Last but not least
I still never do any promises now
cause I know
I never need those promises to make a lie for me myself
I just wanna work it out
let everyone sees it =)
know what I'm doing
God bless me
From the inside out -- Hillsong United =)
and I achieved a real bad results this time
worse than before
and I'm not improving while all others all trying hard to improve
as to get in better classes next year
so I think to do something
to boast up my studies
and change all my study styles
change my attitudes
I really think much for this 1 month time
from the holidays until now.
My parents do everything to give me a good future
get everything I want
buy me everything I asked for
but I can't do something worth to repay them
first I really felt that I'm a terrible son
not really know how to appreciate their love
and never respect them
always know to talk them loudly
using some words that I shouldn't be using for them ><
I really feel so sorry to them after all
I should've changed myself
in order to get all success
my relationship to my parents
my relationship with my friends
my relationship with Her
my relationship with God
and I have to suffer sometimes really hard
before achieving what I really wants to
I don't wanna give you empty promises anymore
I am always doing the childish way
and causing laughter around
like a fool
I really wanted to stop this stupid habits.
but I just can't get any feelings of secure for me
I have to do this to make myself feel better
so don't scold me if I'm childish sometimes
you know what?
I forced to =(
I will feel very lonely at night
although with your accompanion
only my hands are busy
to text
but not my mouth ><
I want to talk
to share my feelings at night
but I can't
there's no one.
maybe I should choose my parents
but they too have their job
their duties to be done
so I can just keep myself silent through the night
and just phone you sometimes and talk
to make me feel a little bit better
and to make my night stay great =)
I know I can't give any promises now
but I just hope that you really know my feelings
my feelings towards you
towards my studies
towards my future
I did really think about it seriously
but I just felt so lazy to work it out before
but now
I'd really decided to change my own life
to give you and me, everyone beside me a better future
I will do prayer every night
talk to God
ask God to be with us always =)
Count our blessings
God bless everyone
Sorry
if I did wrong to you guys last time
I will try hard to get back our friendship
and I really hope that we will lasts long
friendship forever =)
our relationship never ends
and too for You
I will work hard to maintain this relationship
till the worlds' end =)
Me and You
I meant it
I love you
you're my source of power sometimes
boast me up when I'm down
telling something to comfort me
be with me when I'd hated by others
you're the one I trust the most
you're the one I fighting for
=)
and tomorrow is our 10th monthsary
hoped that we can achieve and maintain our relationship together
no matter where we are
what we are doing
we will be working hard together
just for our future
=)
Last but not least
I still never do any promises now
cause I know
I never need those promises to make a lie for me myself
I just wanna work it out
let everyone sees it =)
know what I'm doing
God bless me
From the inside out -- Hillsong United =)
Thursday, June 30, 2011
For the first time.
Today
when I reach home
my dad hand me my L license card!!
but the picture is so so different from the real me.
ewww ~ =O
I really so happy when first get the license card
means that I'm nearly to freedom
and can go wherever I want =)
do whatever I wish
siao meh -,- hahahaha!
just that I can have my own transport rather than always depends on my parent to fetch me.
1-7-2011
is not today
but it falls own the day after
means tomorrow!!
and it's quite a memorable day for US =)
know what?
we had been in a relationship for 300 days !
hiak hiak hiak!!
not 3 not 30
it's 300 !!
owhh yaaaa
then I have my plan to give Her a surprise
by buying her a cake from SR. =)
and and
I have my own transport now
although it's quite a dangerous task for me to ride there
as I'm a new L license holder.
but this is just my only plan.
so I planned to ride out at around 4.xx
cause my parent would not be around that time
before that,
I was sleeping on the sofa
then She wakes me up at 16:20
and ask me to wake up
first, I was kinda lazy to do so
but I have to
so that I can work my plan out! =D
then she ask me to get my homework done =)
everything starts
after the call is ended
She never know what happens tomorrow which I had reminded Her time and time
and She never know I'm going out by motor ><
then I rush to the bathroom and take a short bath
then I change my shirt on
and started to pick up the bike's key
and go out =)
----- riding along the road -----
----- reaching SR -----
Sir, can I have a piece of Chocolate Cheese Beries?
Eat here or takeaway?
Takeaway :)
Alright!
=== Conversation Ends ===
then I get back to my motor
and ride back =)
soon I reach home
and put it in my fridge safely xD
hahahahahahahhaa.
for the first time!!
I go out without informing Her
went out 16:30 and reached home at 16:59 =)
Thanks God
I reach home safely.
hope that she will enjoy tomorrow =)
For what I do, I do it for you. <3
with no regrets.
I love you =)
when I reach home
my dad hand me my L license card!!
but the picture is so so different from the real me.
ewww ~ =O
I really so happy when first get the license card
means that I'm nearly to freedom
and can go wherever I want =)
do whatever I wish
siao meh -,- hahahaha!
just that I can have my own transport rather than always depends on my parent to fetch me.
1-7-2011
is not today
but it falls own the day after
means tomorrow!!
and it's quite a memorable day for US =)
know what?
we had been in a relationship for 300 days !
hiak hiak hiak!!
not 3 not 30
it's 300 !!
owhh yaaaa
then I have my plan to give Her a surprise
by buying her a cake from SR. =)
and and
I have my own transport now
although it's quite a dangerous task for me to ride there
as I'm a new L license holder.
but this is just my only plan.
so I planned to ride out at around 4.xx
cause my parent would not be around that time
before that,
I was sleeping on the sofa
then She wakes me up at 16:20
and ask me to wake up
first, I was kinda lazy to do so
but I have to
so that I can work my plan out! =D
then she ask me to get my homework done =)
everything starts
after the call is ended
She never know what happens tomorrow which I had reminded Her time and time
and She never know I'm going out by motor ><
then I rush to the bathroom and take a short bath
then I change my shirt on
and started to pick up the bike's key
and go out =)
----- riding along the road -----
----- reaching SR -----
Sir, can I have a piece of Chocolate Cheese Beries?
Eat here or takeaway?
Takeaway :)
Alright!
=== Conversation Ends ===
then I get back to my motor
and ride back =)
soon I reach home
and put it in my fridge safely xD
hahahahahahahhaa.
for the first time!!
I go out without informing Her
went out 16:30 and reached home at 16:59 =)
Thanks God
I reach home safely.
hope that she will enjoy tomorrow =)
For what I do, I do it for you. <3
with no regrets.
I love you =)
Sunday, May 29, 2011
Nights
what is night?
According to Wikipedia,
night is the period of time when the sun is below the horizon.
every time the sun rises, will then sunsets
and here's come the night
i had passed my mid-term exam
which lasts for almost 2 weeks
through the 2 weeks
I didn't sleep well
I didn't eat well
just to get myself concentrate on my studies
and I don't want to feel regret after all
and I went for group studies with her for times
in crc, school library and Starbucks sometimes
every night
I will feel something wrong
really
just a kind of feelings
feeling stressed
will then easily gone mad
and so
it affects my mood much
and I tried hard to control it
it just couldn't works
I don't know why I will have such feelings only
at the night
I hate it!
it makes me feel bad
it makes me feel so stressed during exam
and now
it struggles me again and again
it makes me think for something more
then i will gone mad
and started to have my mood changed
sorry if I treated you bad these days
hope you can understand my feelings
and don't think that I'm leaving you or what
just the feelings lead my mind to a Devil's part
and I suffered for quite a period
I know I have my mood changed
but I just hope that I can text you or chat with you with the way I really am
and not just pretending that I'm fine
and so
I will become so called 'don't trust you' at night
it struggles me for months
Months.
and
I really hope that you can tell me everything
you promised me
before
again and again
but it seems only words
for you
maybe you're nothing to get informed late
but for me,
i really don't like
I thought I told you times before
and it makes me no secure
you can say that I just think too much
but I just wanna tell you that
I don't want to let any chances to come across to separate us apart
I am really not in the mood now
I hope that you will understand my feelings.
and too for my readers
if you know what causing me suffering these stupid stuffs
do tell me ><
I really need help
before I can't stand with it
I just wanna say sorry to you
many things happened these days
you never noticed that something had changed
never
sometimes the guy who are so strong from his physical
he is no longer a strong guy in mental
you have to take good care of them
especially
to someone who really meant so much to you
Godfather
do bless my every night
God bless me.
=)
Lastly,
I still wanna say
I love you =)
Music of my day
What can I do - The Corrs
According to Wikipedia,
night is the period of time when the sun is below the horizon.
every time the sun rises, will then sunsets
and here's come the night
i had passed my mid-term exam
which lasts for almost 2 weeks
through the 2 weeks
I didn't sleep well
I didn't eat well
just to get myself concentrate on my studies
and I don't want to feel regret after all
and I went for group studies with her for times
in crc, school library and Starbucks sometimes
every night
I will feel something wrong
really
just a kind of feelings
feeling stressed
will then easily gone mad
and so
it affects my mood much
and I tried hard to control it
it just couldn't works
I don't know why I will have such feelings only
at the night
I hate it!
it makes me feel bad
it makes me feel so stressed during exam
and now
it struggles me again and again
it makes me think for something more
then i will gone mad
and started to have my mood changed
sorry if I treated you bad these days
hope you can understand my feelings
and don't think that I'm leaving you or what
just the feelings lead my mind to a Devil's part
and I suffered for quite a period
I know I have my mood changed
but I just hope that I can text you or chat with you with the way I really am
and not just pretending that I'm fine
and so
I will become so called 'don't trust you' at night
it struggles me for months
Months.
and
I really hope that you can tell me everything
you promised me
before
again and again
but it seems only words
for you
maybe you're nothing to get informed late
but for me,
i really don't like
I thought I told you times before
and it makes me no secure
you can say that I just think too much
but I just wanna tell you that
I don't want to let any chances to come across to separate us apart
I am really not in the mood now
I hope that you will understand my feelings.
and too for my readers
if you know what causing me suffering these stupid stuffs
do tell me ><
I really need help
before I can't stand with it
I just wanna say sorry to you
many things happened these days
you never noticed that something had changed
never
sometimes the guy who are so strong from his physical
he is no longer a strong guy in mental
you have to take good care of them
especially
to someone who really meant so much to you
Godfather
do bless my every night
God bless me.
=)
Lastly,
I still wanna say
I love you =)
Music of my day
What can I do - The Corrs
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